In other words, I want a break.
I’m beginning to think that I’m on the verge of getting burned out. I’ve made decisions that I knew at that time were not my best decisions, but I thought I could handle the repercussions since I would be expecting them. But this is what I get for trying to play fate, for trying to play karma. I got burned, and I’m paying dearly for it.
I have not been happy with my performance for the past few months, and it’s taken a toll on my body and emotions. I don’t feel healthy, I’m always tired, and I’ve been crying a lot more. That’s why when that announcement in the email came, I jumped at it without thinking too much. I figured I’ve been overthinking every single aspect of my life already that I might as well go with my instincts for once.
I’m scared, to be honest. I don’t like uncertainty. I don’t like sudden changes. I don’t like the feeling of being overwhelmed.
I like being happy. Who doesn’t, right?
But right now, I don’t think I am.
And that’s why I want… no… I NEED a break.