TEDxKatipunanAve yesterday was awe-inspiring, and it left me in such high spirits that I find it utterly strange that today I was uninspired, lethargic, and pessimistic – the complete opposite of what I had been last night. It didn’t help that it was father’s day and I was being sulky (only a bit in front of my family). I suppose that was one reason I decided to pack my work bag–I didn’t want to infect my family with my negativity on such a peaceful and happy day–and head on over to the local Starbucks, the closest to a personal sanctuary I could get.
I holed up there with the full intention of working, but I got off to a slow start. That particular work always left a sour taste in my mouth, so I sweetened my tongue up with a chapter or two (or three; I didn’t exactly count) of Gregory Maguire’s Mirror, Mirror before finally delving into the work.
I finished it. Well, as finished as one could get without internet connection.
In between pages of what I checked and reviewed, I thought about what it was that was bothering me. Nothing clear nor concrete came to mind. Was I feeling inadequate again, the same way I felt after leaving TEDxXS? Or was it something else? Was my spider-sense tingling? What should I have been aware of? Was it my heart breaking? But there was nothing nor no one to break it.
So why then did I feel so worthless today?